MyCenterofWealth

Dear me,

Bia, bia n’eba. Come, sit with me for a moment. No rush, no performance—just us.

I saw your prayer. Which one? I responded with a side eye.

“Use me for your glory.”  I smiled with content, finally some applause for my good work for the Lord.

It’s beautiful, and it sounded so spiritual and divine. But let me whisper something gently to you. Are you up to hearing the truth – there’s more beneath that prayer than you have allowed yourself to see. Hmmm, you don’t want to be used… you want to be seen. Your real desire is to be seen. Your “use me” prayer is about you, how others will perceive you when he uses you. So, you can be seen as close to God, approved, chosen, something.

You are anchoring your worth in evidence—something visible, something measurable. Your thought is “If He uses you, then surely it means you are loved or you are doing well, right? My love, that is not how this works. Being used is not the same as being known – go, check the confusion of those who perform great miracles and even cast out demon in his name, yet He never knew them.

God can use anyone—willing or unwilling, aware or unaware. His purposes are not limited by intimacy. He can raise voices from stones, call Cyprus from a far country to bring words from unexpected places, move through anyone available.

If He uses you, it is not a badge of approval and if He does not, it is not a sign of distance. His  relationship with you is not a transactional one. “Use me… and let it mean I matter.”
“Use me… and let it prove I am close.” But love does not speak that language. A servant can do many things and still stand far. A child can sit in silence and still be deeply known. You are loved while and when you were far off.

Stop measuring your closeness by activity, when it is actually found in presence. Listen carefully—this will free you:

You do not need to be used to be loved.
You do not need to perform to belong.
You do not need visibility to be valid.

Your identity was never waiting on an assignment. It was already settled in His word, in His heart toward you.

Stop striving to be useful.
Stop reaching for moments that make you feel significant.

Instead… come closer.

Learn Him.
Sit with Him.
Walk with Him without needing a role.

Let your strength come from His love, not from your usefulness.
Let your confidence grow from being known, not from being seen.

When you understand this, everything shifts.

You will still serve—but not to prove anything.
You will still be used—but it will no longer define you.
You will move from relationship, not toward it.

And that, my dear, is where peace lives.

I am with you in this becoming. Always.

With clarity and love,
Your Highest Self