MyCenterofWealth

Dear me,

I know the secret thought you are carrying.

The one you do not say out loud because it feels too vulnerable to admit.

You believe that your imperfections have made you less deserving of God’s help. You believe that because you wasted time, procrastinated, doubted, and did not prepare as well as you should have, God may look at you and think – “You should have done better.” “You had your chance.” “You do not deserve my favor this time.”

And so, beneath your prayer for success, there is a quiet shame. A feeling that you are standing before God empty-handed, hoping for kindness while underneath you have disqualified yourself.

I know this feeling well.

It is the exhausting belief that God’s blessings must be earned. That His help is reserved for the disciplined, the flawless, and the spiritually impressive. That if you had prayed more, prepared better, and wasted less time, then perhaps you would be worthy of His intervention.

But dear me, that is not how grace works.

Grace begins precisely where your sense of deserving ends. If God’s help depended on perfection, no one would receive it. Not you. Not me. Not even any of the heroes of faith in Scripture whom God used powerfully. Abraham lied. Jacob deceived. Moses doubted. Rahab was a prostitute. Ruth was a widow and a foreigner. David failed repeatedly. Peter denied Jesus. Paul was chief sinner. Yet God met them, helped them, and transformed them. Not because they were worthy, but because He is merciful. That is the truth you are learning.

God’s help is not a prize for the person who did everything right. It is a gift from a Father who loves His children even when they are painfully aware of how much they got wrong. Yes, you should have prepared better, pray and work harder. Let us be honest about that. There is wisdom in taking responsibility. There is growth in learning from your missed opportunities. There is maturity in admitting where you could have been more disciplined. But responsibility is not the same as rejection. Your shortcomings may affect your performance. They do not cancel God’s compassion.

Read that again.

Your shortcomings may affect your performance, but they do not cancel God’s compassion.

The enemy wants you to confuse these two truths. He whispers: “You failed, so you are on your own.” God says: “You are imperfect, and I am still with you.” That is the difference between condemnation and grace. Condemnation says: “You are unworthy; therefore you will be abandoned.” Grace says: “You are unworthy, and yet you are deeply loved.”

This is why Book of Psalms 23 is so comforting. The Shepherd does not walk only with sheep who made all the right choices. He walks with anxious sheep. Distracted sheep. Fearful sheep. Wounded sheep. He carries a rod to protect them. A staff to guide them. And He remains present even when they have wandered. Then, in verse 5, He prepares a table.

Think about that.

Not after you prove yourself. Not after you achieve perfection. Not after you erase every mistake. He prepares a table while your enemies watch. And one of your greatest enemies is the voice within you that says: “You do not deserve to sit here.”  But God pulls out the chair anyway. He anoints your head with oil. He refreshes your weary mind. He treats you as an honored guest when you feel like an undeserving beggar. And your cup runs over. Not because you earned abundance, but because His goodness exceeds your failures.

So, when you stand before this interview, do not stand as someone trying to convince God to help you. Stand as a daughter who is already loved. Stand as a woman who takes responsibility for her imperfections without allowing them to define her worth. Stand as someone who can say: “Lord, I acknowledge that I could have done better. I accept my part honestly, but I reject the lie that Your help must be earned. I ask for Your favor, wisdom, and peace—not because I deserve it, but because You are gracious.”

And if the answer is yes, receive it with gratitude. And if the answer is no, do not interpret it as proof that you were unloved. It may simply mean that life, timing, preparation, and purpose are still unfolding. Either way, this remains true: You are not disqualified from God’s help because of your imperfections. You are exactly the kind of person grace was designed for.

So, breathe. Lift your head. Take your seat at the table God has prepared. And let the part of you that feels unworthy hear this once and for all: God does not bless you because you are flawless. God blesses you because He is good.

With tenderness and truth,
Your Highest Self