MyCenterofWealth

Dear me,

Hmmm… I say you jumping over this verse in your mind – “diverse weights and diverse measures, they are both alike, an abomination to the LORD.”  You think it does not speak to you in the moment.

You are wrong. Let me tell you one bitter truth, you think you treat everybody the same, but your heart has temperatures. You think you are fair and loving, you have silent scales you carry, the ones you don’t even realize you use sometimes.

There are people you become softer with because they respond correctly to you. They admire you well. They appreciate you loudly. They make you feel seen, respected, important, understood. And there are others you slowly reduce portions for.

Not openly, not enough, for people to call you wicked. Just enough to quietly communicate – “You are no longer receiving the full version of me.” Less laughter. Less patience. Less checking up. Less warmth. Less excitement. Less access. Because in your mind, affection has started responding to behavior.

You think you are being fair because technically, you are still “good” to them. But love is no longer flowing freely. It is now reacting.

Different measures.

You are rewarding emotional performance. And the dangerous part is this – you call it wisdom. You call it discernment. You call it protecting your energy. But if you are honest, sometimes it is disappointment controlling your generosity. You became easier to love when people are easy to you. You became measured when people stopped behaving according to your internal expectations.

Dear Me, God does not give rain that way. He does not say -“Today, no sunlight for this person because they ignored Me yesterday.” “No oxygen for this one because they disappointed Me.”
“No mercy for this one because they are emotionally immature.” He gives rain to both the just and the unjust.

Consistent goodness. Not manipulated goodness. One measure.

And no, this does not mean absence of boundaries. This does not mean allowing abuse. This does not mean access without wisdom. But it does mean your heart should not become selective in humanity. Because somewhere along the line, you unknowingly turned affection into a reward system.

You become fully alive around people who feed you correctly. But around those who frustrate you, misunderstand you, fail to affirm you properly, or do not carry your preferred emotional language, you start shrinking your love in portions. And you think because you are still polite, you are still pure. But Heaven sees withdrawn warmth too.

Dear Me, real love is revealed when people are not meeting your emotional cravings. Can you remain kind without becoming calculating? Can you remain open-hearted without silently keeping score? Can you stop making people earn emotional sunlight from you? Because truthfully, you too have survived on undeserved mercy.

There are days you were difficult. Days you were inconsistent. Days you misunderstood others. Days you responded poorly. Yet God did not reduce air from your lungs. He stayed constant while growing you. And that is the maturity I am calling you into.

Not performative niceness. Not emotional favoritism. Not partial affection disguised as wisdom. But a heart so healed that it does not need people to behave perfectly before it can remain light.

One measure. One weight. One spirit.

Not because people deserve perfection from you, but because love loses its purity the moment it becomes a transaction.

From the Highest You
Me